Showing posts with label walking. Show all posts
Showing posts with label walking. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 10, 2021

beauty binds us together

 What is ordinary daily life anyway?
Breakfast – housecoats – diapers – bath – crying – cleaning up 
TV  - tea – reading stories – snowsuits – writing letters, reading letters,
holding babies, making sandwiches – heating soup 
 folding corduroys – sorting socks – tea – coaxing two year olds
 listening to seven year olds – thinking – quilting – my art 
the radio – the window – the dishwasher 
thinking – jotting down ideas – peeling vegetables
pouring milk – talking – piano lessons – undressing – sex
How would I define myself?
I would have to answer ‘ a mother ‘
When you have a seven-month-old baby, it does really occupy you the most. 
But I feel that I am an artist too.  I can’t call myself one this year though. 
 Now I am first a mother.

Journal Text from December 13 1987 

Images of stitching and nature walks from this week.

 

Monday, March 20, 2017

wrecked


People are not aware of their abstract emotions,
which are a big part of their lives,
except when they listen to music
or look at art.

Agnes Martin


A woman made utility quilts as fast as she could 
so that her familly wouldn't freeze, and
she made them as beautiful as she could 
so that her heart wouldn't break.

American folk saying

image from April 2012
both quotes from my current journal
glad to be walking on my road again, the ice has gone. 

Wednesday, October 05, 2016

luminous halo path

This post is about the piece I made for the Elemental festival on Manitoulin Island 2016.
Curator Sophie Anne Edwards invited me to create a piece about the daily walk I've make along my country road.  I've done this walk for 23 years,  sewing myself to this place.
The theme of this year's festival was "walking".  It took place in the village of Kagawong, about a 40 minute drive from my house.  My piece would be installed along the river and to make it easier to transport, I wrapped it.

Friends from Nova Scotia were visiting for the week and helped with the installation.  Above, Margi Hennen assists 4 element's Patricia with the un-wrapping.
The festival offered a rich mix of activities and entertainment around the walking theme.    
We attended Marlene Creates' presentation of the walking she does to help her learn more about her 6 acres of boreal forest in Newfoundland and also her poetry walks.

My daily walk to Cricket Hill is one km - 1250 steps. (one way)
I sewed strong chains of cloth I have collected for 40 years, a luminous halo that represented my life.

Virginia Woolf said:   Life is not a series of gig lamps symmetrically arranged; life is a luminous halo, a semi-transparent envelope surrounding us from the beginning of consciousness to the end.
The chains are connected to wrapped clover that represents my foot steps.
A life of stepping over and through hurdles and burdens, joys and unexpected visions
Above, Valerie Hearder helps with the installation.

The path has something to do with mortality and summing up and about stitching my self together.
Using the colourful cloth as soul medicine.
Van Gogh believed that colour has power over line.
Line may be the language of reason but colour is sensuality itself.

Every day I sewed a little more, working towards one km of cloth.
Consider cloth.
It is such an important and enduring tactile presence in all our daily lives.
Cloth is what touches our skin, cloth is what we sleep with.
Cloth is tangible, the most intimate and familiar material construction and touching it makes current thought and past emotions visible.
The materiality of cloth is generous, allowing memories of beauty or love to come up to the surface and be a halo or aura that holds each of us.
This project shows faith in the future and faith in myself.

Working with materials reveals me to myself.
I understand my life and my healing through making.
In Eastern cultures the act of joining small pieces together embodies a wish for a long life.
Above, Patricia Mader and Penny Berens help with the installation.

As you walk this path, go slowly.
Match my gait.
Notice your own experience of walking along the river.
Step step step.
My body – spirit steps into the future.
Who knows where?  Answer, the same place.  

Friday, September 16, 2016

I chant my steps

I've been able to resume a daily walk.
I use a cane, I count each step, chanting in my mind
...twenty two, twenty three, twenty four.........
I don't know why I do that.
Each day I can get a little further without stopping to rest.
The act of walking has become a brave repetition of small movements
that strengthen me, ground me, and give me ritual.
I am sewing a line to celebrate my daily walk.
I've have been considering doing this for years.
Last winter, each time that I completed the walk, I moved a square of white linen into a basket, although I didn't know how or what I was going to do with them.  Some kind of path perhaps.

The repetition of day after day of stepping reminded me of stitching.  It was as if I was sewing myself to my local landscape.  I wanted to make something that referenced the running stitch I guess.
A walking step/stitch.
Then I broke my leg.
No more walk.
Instead, I looked at the horizon.  I sat on my deck.
I began wrapping those squares of white around around sweet clover.  Wrap wrap wrap.
The clover stalks grow as tall as me.  In the summer they smelled sweet.
I bent the branches, cut the stalk, and bandaged them with cloth and thread.
I thought that somehow, these could still represent me and my walk. The walk un-walked.

My daughter told me that they looked like bones.
go over, go through, go into what we already know
material objects open a door to inner ness
I spaced the white steps into a relaxed gait, using cloth that I have saved, full of memories.
My life path, a patchwork of time.

My path will measures the distance of the walk I can do now and I'll speak more about it when it is installed during the elemental festival in 2 weeks.

Gravity is measured by the bottom of the foot.                  Juhani Pallasmaa said that

Tuesday, August 02, 2016

enfolded

a gift of time - linen wrapped clover
yesterday, today, and tomorrow
the small white cloths represent my daily walk
(before I lost the ability to do that walk)

last winter and spring I was making a piece about the importance for me of my daily walk on our country road
every day that I did that walk, I placed a square of white cloth into a basket
the white sweet clover is from our property
it grows along the beach and we consider it a weed
it smells so beautiful
it is as tall as me
the smell increases as the plant dries
art is a connecting force in our lives
it connects high-low, human-earth
it connects what we understand and what we don't
for ourselves and for others
my broken leg was a gift.
it gave me time and solitude
I didn't go anywhere for two months except to hospital or dr. appointment
I stayed on one level
I started going up and down (just 5) stairs on July 20, seven weeks after I broke that left leg

I stepped backwards into more space and less worry
what is it to become aware of the body?
it is to acknowledge that presence of death in life.
not a binary opposite but
enfolded at its very centre.  penina barnett
daily life and the news
they close us down
art opens us up again
we need art as much as we need food and shelter
these little bundles
about loss
about my body
about healing

bundled, wrapped, bandaged
step step step

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

my fear

"Bravery is the power to keep on.
Having courage is not about not having fear,
but keeping on going in company with that fear"  Cheryl Strayed
I can't even imagine it, but it happened to me.  It happened to my left leg.  It broke in two.
"Once I felt at home working with cloth, I could concentrate on everything I had neglegted.
My body.  My losses.  My anger.  My own goodness.
My yearning for tenderness.  My yearning for social contact. " Radka Donnell
"Legs have to do with personal needs and desires.
The left leg is connected to the authentic part of ourself
The left leg is related to how you feel and what you believe
A painful left leg shows that there is something askew with personal needs and desires"
Wendy Golden-Levitt
The break was a diagonal clean break . It was not crushed, rather the bones crossed over each other. The bone was healthy.  No tumors, it was not porus.  A spiral fracture.
"We have art in order not to perish from truth."  Friedrich Nietzsche
The hospital experience was all about my old crumpled heavy smelly body, and my journal helped me through it.  My journal also helped me to find my self-spirit again.
It gave me a place to just lay it out in black and white who I am.  Really truly.
Oona brought Grace and the boys to visit over the weekend and it was lovely.  Everett beat me at checkers, Jack gave me the lipstick he had helped pick out.  It was the same colour as the one I had lost in Chicago.
The nurse brought black coffee and marmalade toast to me at 6 am , a small kindness, so important.
"Poets:  give up your own will and trust beyond measure."  Luce Irigaray

The femur is the biggest and strongest bone in the body.
"Beauty is an awareness in the mind
It is not an object
It is seen through an object"     Agnes Martin

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

stitching myself into a dotted line

Andy Goldsworthy said  "whenever possible, I make a work every day.  Each work joins the next in a line that defines the passage of my life, marking and accounting for my time and creating a momentum which gives me a strong sense of anticipation for the future."  
I try to do my best work every day.
I divide myself up yet keep myself together with my work.  At the same time.
My daily walk helps me manage this as I stitch myself to place, yes,
but also stitch myself together with each step.
I walk a line.  It represents time.
I sew a path measured by my own stride.
Each day, each dot, is important because it's another day that I've kept myself together, able to carry on with all my scattered-ness.

That walk gives me a container to wrap my self up in.
providence bay manitoulin island mother's day weekend
The future waits for me on a path not yet marked with my daily dot.