First of, all I need to say is, SOMEONE needs to bless, kiss and fucking lay on the very ground Quil Carter walks on.
Because if one person, can bringFirst of, all I need to say is, SOMEONE needs to bless, kiss and fucking lay on the very ground Quil Carter walks on.
Because if one person, can bring me to my very knees the way Quil Carter did, nobuddy is safe.
“Daisy Daisy,” Sanguine murmured in a singing voice; his red eyes narrowed and his hand raised; he cupped Mantis’s chin and tilted his own head back and forth like he was examining him. “Give me your heart to do.” He grinned wider and pressed his face up against Mantis’s until their noses were touching. Still Mantis didn’t flinch; he watched the chimera intently his movements reduced to only the breath inside of his chest. “I’m half-crazy…” Sanguine sang in a raspy whisper; his eyes closed, “All for the love… of you.”
I really want to appluad Quil on his work on Sanguine. This was an extremely, excurstingly tough book to not only read as a reader, but I'm sure write as an author. And he not only impressed me with the very first page of this book, he blew my mind, shot my sanity, and will forever make Narky Nark question the ever loving gods of what, how and why I adore and cherish a very certain character.
Evil? This made me look at the bad people differently. Maybe they didn’t want to be bad but everyone else kept telling them they were supposed to be bad, so one day they just decided to go with it. In the Disney books all the bad guys have dark clothes or dark fur but it wasn’t their fault they were born that way or that was the clothing they liked to wear. Maybe if Mufasa was nice to Scar and told Scar he could be king on weekends then Scar wouldn’t have killed him.
Okay, being serious for a second, I won't sugarcoat and this might be a bit spoilery, but it's Falloucast and anything related to abuse is the most common common sense thing one can get, and the abuse my sanguine faces in this book is gutwrenchingly haunting, I'm really glad Quil didn't highlight or glorify the horrifying parts of it. I'm really fucking glad. And with that, I got to enjoy this writing even more and appreciate the elegant way his writing and the power of his words grow, and it is incredible the way Quil can put so much depth, so much passion; whether that be anger, hostility, loneliness, sadness, power, fear, and at it's seldom times, happiness, truly unmaned me.
Quil Carter holds a very much gift in the very hands he types this book, a mind to be treasured for and my sanity to be fucked with.
Here I stood in front of my king, and though he was just a king and a master to so many of our brothers – to me, Silas was more than that. I had seen the mask slip off of his face and had neither been horrified or scared of what I had seen. Because underneath the hatred, the jealousy, and the mania… I saw a man with a sense of humour, patience, kindness, and generosity. I knew who Silas Sebastian Dekker really was
And the way Quil created and very much developed Sanguine's character arc is both a great nightmare, and a demonic sight to behold. Watching sanguine break and mend, break and mend before utterly collpase in his ruins was truly the devastingly glorious book to read and behold.
And with that, the book came with it's challenges. Sanguine is a very, extremely complicated, perplex and damaged character. He has and continues to go through a lot from the start until the fucking end of this book and continue onward, but for what this book remained justified it's constant tug and pull and push of sanity, of irrational rationality, of broken morality and truly, it was like watching madness repeat itself again and again, with the next dose getting madder and madder.
A genetically enhanced brain can only hold so much madness.
as he dragged the wire, the line started to weave and curve, until Silas had made a beautiful design complete with a spiral. It looked like a long twisted string of ivy, the little ruby blood droplets gathering in the wound making it look like little roses. Silas handed Sanguine the wire. “Even in the clutches of the most destructive agony… you can find beauty,”
This book, is a craft of it's very own genre. Ones unique to most (that aside from the length of this book) is it's very own pacing. The book grew slow, and yet steady, horrifying and yet utterly captivated, filled with such sadness, anger, loneliness and betrayal, you can't help but reach inside this book and give sanguine the biggest bear of hugs.
I am a man in appearance only, inside I feel like an animal most days or the walking corpse of a young boy who had never been shown how to die.
This book understands and explores the narrative of not only physical trauma, but mental and emotional defeat, our very battle with it, and the devastating cruelty our very minds can bring to ourselves. It was watching how the predator was no one else but your mind and your very being, the heart and soul of it's prey.
I had to get him to stop. I had to escape from him. But how can I escape from a voice inside of my head? I had nowhere to go, and no one to help me fight. I was trapped with him both inside of this room and inside the cage I had always been locked in inside my head.
I noted and I really want to quote my words that I have written while reading this book,
“ You know, when I read Falloucast, I get so immersed into the world, when I return back to reality, it's so jarring. ”
And Jack and Sanguine... Let's just say, I'm interested to see where those two lead too.
“You have a deepness in your eyes that makes a thousand poems spring to my tongue. And a body that tells me I could paint you every day for the rest of my life and still be inspired. I might not know you well but–” He paused; his lips were so pink, so welcoming… “I feel like you’re an old friend who managed to find his way home. How… strange is that?”
I won't talk much about it, I'll leave it in pieces between for the very man who stole my fucking heart.
Silas watched Sanguine sit on the bed and slowly, without any sharp movements, he sat at the head of the bed with him with his legs stretched out in front. Sanguine sat cross-legged beside him, surprisingly close, and held out his hand for the chip bag.
I laid back down in bed and chuckled when Silas gave me Barry and drew my blankets up over me. “I’m not a child, you know.” Silas laughed with me, and just to be an ass I suspected, he started tucking me in. “I can still baby you, and you can just deal with it, smartass.” Then he pinched my cheeks. I snorted and made a motion to bite his hand. “Sleep well, love.”
It was a strange and terrifying sight for Jack to take in. The black-haired chimera, his grey face a mask of solid stone, and his red eyes blazing like two burning cigarettes, slowly approaching the King Who Ended the World like he was Satan himself calling on him to finally answer for his crimes. Silas wanted to create a demon – and he had indeed succeeded.
And to close off this book, and this review, this book and every word of mine is a big fuck you to the very voices we hear screaming from our head
Because let it be known, that they will never win.
“Barry, Barry, give me your heart to do!” I sang to him after I was bored of painting on the walls. “I’m half-crazy, all for the love of yooouuuu.”
initial reactions can someone please give me a hug???? and a fucking shoulder to cry on???...more
Word of advice, Don't trust Quil Carter you guys. Don't trust him over your damn damn life.
Sincerely, Reader who got so burned by him.
The man
Word of advice, Don't trust Quil Carter you guys. Don't trust him over your damn damn life.
Sincerely, Reader who got so burned by him.
The man looked like a ghost in that moment, a phantom, a spectre, something not from this world but yet he was someone who had been in it longer than anyone.
God. I have never hated an author, never hated a book so much, I can't believe my audacity to love this book on an equal note. Did you get that? No? Because same, I didn't. I'm over here stewing and literally planning murder plots for a certain character who I really wish I could open the doors of Satan's front door for him.
MAN. this book put a joke on my existence. This book slapped me in my face, it mocked my morality and it threw spit on every single moral compass I ever have, and stomped my heart, my sanity. AND GODDAMNIT DO I LOVE THIS BOOK AND WILL OPEN MY FUCKING FRONT DOORS TO REAVER AND KILLI-CAT IN A HEARTBEAT.
When Killian saw me his face brightened, something that always made me feel good, I didn’t even think he realized he did it.
The boy looked up at me, his eyes red and full of tears. He stared into me with such emotion I felt my cold dead heart give a flicker of empathy. “Please, Reaver?” I hated the pull that kid had on me at times.
“I love you.” I could hear his smile even though I couldn’t see it. “What is this love thing? Chimeras can’t love... I tolerate you though.” That got me a smack; I laughed and kissed his neck. “I love you too, Killibee, now go to sleep. We have a long ass day of dealing with greywasters tomorrow.”
We were two fugitives, one a chimera and another the chimera-magnet, far from what was no longer our home but, for now, together and safe. I shouldn’t take him for granted... and I wouldn’t.
And reaver has officially (re)defined my definition on Kili-cat, Well, he might cry too much, but he was a crafty little shit.
Okay, so you want my honest review?
I hate this book. I love this book. I hate this book. I HATE THIS BOOK! I HATE THIS BOOK!!!! GAHHHHH IT'S SO GOD! I. WANT. TO. COMMIT. MURDER!!! FUCK, that ending!!!
And I know, well I think I know, everyone likes Elish and his cold stone pathetic heart, but I'm sorry, that man gives me the fucking heebie jeebies and he's sketchy AS FUCK to my sanity. (And I also blame him for every goddamn thing so that doesn't help), sorry nark ...more
✨ Enlighten this review by me simply worshiping the English language for holding such magnificence and grandeur that gave this book the chance to spea✨ Enlighten this review by me simply worshiping the English language for holding such magnificence and grandeur that gave this book the chance to speak a composition that stole the very ground I walk on ✨
People were not comforted by facts. People were comforted by hope, no matter how false.
Because HOW. How is this writing even POSSIBLE? How could someone think of these words, how can someone craft such plain words and simple meanings into paragraphs of such beauty and awe, reflection and amazement.
I was in awe half of this book.
He’s strangely aware that the choking cord wrapped around his neck grows warmer with every passing second, absorbing the heat of his body, stealing it away as if stealing his life.
Like forget the fact that I hate thrillers, and am so-so in the mystery genre,
To demonstrate, it's not just poetic, flowery writing-which even if this held that attitude, it would still hold the capability to render me in awe, but this book and it's integral writing marched a mile closer and demonstrated what can simply be a state of verisimilitude with our characters, their lives so interwoven with their work, how every breath reminds them how the burden their line of work holds over them every single day. It's in the details of their actions, such simple nonchalant description that brings the words alive, makes you not only see the characters but feel them and their honesty.
“Most people use shell-shock to describe something instant. An explosive shock in the moment. But that’s not what it is. It’s the combination of dull weariness and constant keyed-up tension that comes with living twenty-four seven in the middle of active warfare. And when you step out of it…” He shook his head. “You don’t fit in the world anymore. You don’t know how to fit in the world.”
I mean, the REPRESENTATION, need I say more? Facts were stated. Shots were fired. And it was a whole fucking moment.
His tall, leonine body was just as angular, a poetry of geometry, every cut of muscle a component of feline architecture, all precise edges—yet he moved as water flowed. He was grace cut with diamond edges, lethal and elegant.
I love the build up we got of Yoon and Khalaji. They barely tolerated each other and we're forced to work together and ad Khalagi said
They’d managed not to kill each other on one case, but this moment of cathartic camaraderie wouldn’t last. Tomorrow Seong-Jae would still be the same uptight, icy bastard, challenging Malcolm at every turn for his particular regulatory flexibility, as mocking in his silences as he was in his blandly sardonic responses. But goddamn, they were lightning in a bottle when they put their heads together.
It was in subtle terms, impressive seeing how they grew their partnership.
He said nothing else. Neither did Yoon. And silence, for a time, was good.
The only reason I'm not fulfilling a full five star despite my praise is because well, I don't read mystery for a reason and there's a reason why I enjoy crime shows television basis only.
Mystery and suspense is not my genre. Yes, I'll be honest, I struggled. Not going to sugarcoat it. This genre is really not for me, but even in those moments, I continued to read through the book, I woke up today so excited to continue reading on this book, I went out and used up any chance I got to continue reading this book because despite it being my genre, it was just enough for me to get through it. I thoroughly enjoyed this book and THE FUCKING SMALLEST, ITTY BITTY MOMENTS, THE TENSION FILLED “SNIPPETS” we got of Yoon and Khalaji were a golden crown moment, ladies and gentlemen.
Nonetheless, the snap of the gloves against his wrists brought an odd pleasure, as if the tight latex was a choking band snapping around Khalaji’s neck.
And that's basically why I want to continue this 29 DAMN ASS BOOK SERIES. lord give me mercy. (and also because of this exquisite writing because 89% of the time, I was so frustrated with this book because this book said in so many ways: I AM ILLITERATE)
Roses are red Violets are blue, My sanity ceases to exist. Where This book had no right. And now I'm gonna go die in my corner from the nightmare that Roses are red Violets are blue, My sanity ceases to exist. Where This book had no right. And now I'm gonna go die in my corner from the nightmare that is this book.
The slums had taught him only one thing: be prepared for the worst, because it will happen.
Me before reading this book: Life is so dandy and boring. I need fucked up characters to bring some spice in my life.
1st Book for Winterween - Creepy Novella - Read in the dark
Each chapter was a: THE FUCK BITCH?
the premise sounds so interesting, I actually thought 1st Book for Winterween - Creepy Novella - Read in the dark
Each chapter was a: THE FUCK BITCH?
the premise sounds so interesting, I actually thought it was the plot but IT WAS JUST THE FIRST CHAPTER? and the shit that rolls after it gets weird and weirder and so fucking weird I'm not sure what genre this is?
Just what the fuck?
Also the climax/middle point of the story was kinda okay and kinda boring and by 70% into it, I was over the book already.
I'm just not sure what the intent of this book is... TERRIFYING? Nope, but if you like just WEIRD HORROR then I think you'll definently like this book.
However this was too weird for me and kinda boring and kinda dragged on for my taste and the character's logic just got annoying and repetitive.
And I still don't know what is real and what is not....
Sometimes the real heroes, the sacrifice they make is their own legend or memory, or even their life, right? Sometimes the way you know you’ve done good is that the whole town hates you and wants you dead. That there even are still people to hate you and want you dead, that’s success right there....more
I thought this book would bring up some really thought provoking and difficult conversations, 3.5 Stars.
I wasn't really sure what to rate this book.
I thought this book would bring up some really thought provoking and difficult conversations, and while this book did bring me perspective on the biased ridiculous system / discrimination people face, I dunno, this book has just a solid premise, it was a short book and I'm glad it was because I was getting tired of listening it already.
Pretty much everything was predictable, unless that ending (last "plot twist") I guess you could say.
This good is in fact very character based, but I would've enjoyed more... Action? She seems to whine and complain of her situation more times than not but she barely stands up for herself. She makes it seem like she's don't have a choice in her matters that don't have another end but.... I beg to differ.
I could see where they ending of this book became realistic... And while I am in favor of books being split images of reality, it's unsatisfactory as hell.
I dunno, this book was interesting, but it just... It turned bland.
Quite honestly, the majority of this time I listened, I was thinking of what if I was in her position? It's the most awful feeling/thought possible. I can't even fathom. But what I can't get through my system is how she destroyed an innocent man's life. Not the process but the ending. THE ENDING. omg. I just can't, this book has me jumbled....more
I just read the description and the description is off putting, I thought this was a detourUmm what?
what just happened? and what even is this story?
I just read the description and the description is off putting, I thought this was a detour where the protagonist would be trapped somewhere and while that did held some truth, well that part only happened at like the last 40/30 minutes of the the audiobook.
I was so confused reading this with the audiobook, there were timelines ranging from the females perspective and then some perspective I don't understand what the hell they're saying.
Heck, is this even considered a thriller? Or horror or whatever this is, well the ending woul be deem-a-ble but about 75% of this book was about this girl wanting to end her relationship with the male character: Jake. And he relationship with Jake and somehow inserting stories about her past and this caller. And now she's in this creepy town with stranger parents and stranger ice cream staff.
Honestly what even is this book? I was at least 90% confused throughout this book.
I just read the book and can someone explain to me what just happened in this book. WHAT EVEN IS THIS BOOK?
And the ending... what? just, what just happened?...more
this is my first fiction book of King and ohmygawd this was magnificent.
can i just say how creative king is? how he wrowhat the fuck.
i am so broken
this is my first fiction book of King and ohmygawd this was magnificent.
can i just say how creative king is? how he wrote jump scare scenes and just portrayed Paul as a character, it was truly fascinating and fun to read.
and Paul, oh my sweet Paul.
FUCK YOU ANNE! FUCK YOU TO THE GODs!
GAWD! my heart is so wrenched, i can't believe, i can't think, UGK my heart is just in pieces.
i do see how people stated that the first part of this book was hard to get into, i dunno maybe i am biased but i was just so ready to start a king novel that i couldn't think of anything else.
i also noticed a pattern with his writing, well to be fair i have only reaad 2 of this books but i noticed whenever he wrote jumpscare scene he would always side it with another scene, like a memory of his character and somehow relate to the present. i'm not sure if i like it or not, i had my head in my hands when this continued to happen but that didn't stop me from being on my toes.
i was spoked, i was shivering and i was so creeped out. i nearly tried listening and reading this.
i have to say the narrator could do better with the scary scenes since i did read this with the audiobook that would've added to the YOU'RE FUCKED scenes.
i also wish there was more character exploration of Paul especially with his past and who he was but i am not dissapointed with what we got, and the last 40% of this book,honestly i am traumatized. i wish i could my paulie a hug, and stab Annie in the eye.
i usually rate 5 star books if i were to ever reread them, and i don't see myself rereading this anytime in the future, but honestly when i read on writing, and learning about what he went through during the writing process, i just want to go back to the book and just read it again and compare with this book.
this was just.. so cruelly beautiful.
my dear paulie.
i wanna slap my face it took me 6 days to reaad :/
recommended by: noelle read alongside an audiobook...more
Keep in mind that I'm a romance reader and this is the What the fuck. What the fuck was that ending.
Honestly this book was... So fucking exhausting.
Keep in mind that I'm a romance reader and this is the first thriller I've finished without actually boring to death, and well it's off to a good start with four stars.
This book is barely 400 pages and it still could be cut, because not only was the book leading up to the death of a girl who we don't know who is until literally the last five chapters which aggravates me because it pissed me off as the author was barely giving you breadcrumbs for the plot.
But The plot twists were phenomenal, honestly I was shook Everytime... Though in retrospect they were cliche but right now, I'm gonna bathe in my sense of shookedness.
The paranormal freakiness that makes you question, is it really paranormal or is the narrator questionable?
And I have a building hatred for authors who just have to explain and beautify such a simple image, scene or setting in ways that are so complicated and un-understanding you could have just used simpler terms, I will carry this grudge till the death of me because I cannot understand this habit of writers wanting to glorify and exaggerate such a simple concept.
Yet, This book did give me the terrors and I did find myself turning on the light at 3 in the morning towards the bathroom making sure no bloody ghots would haunt me, it's a treasure to have the audiobook reading this to me because I didn't have the courage to lift up my screen and read tactly.
The book was very dragging, literally, it was a confusing mess that was only answered in the maybe the last 5-4 chapters which makes me think that despite the fact that the plots are excellent, is it really worth it? No much unccessary scenes and explanation that I could not have cared about
As a person who just started on thrillers, I need something, not quite boring bits of intriguing questions after a whole writing of a day's dragging events, I wanted something really fast and thrilling but it only served you in miniscule pieces and you have to literally read a 300 and more pages just to get to that part and maybe a few exceptions.
The letter style chapters are very interesting add on because the first chapter was an instant snap.
Also the main character, an applaud for Ruth because I can actually enjoy and stand and the female character. I love how she made me question almost everyone of the characters, well most of them anyway.
Also, To Imogen Church, you are freaking amazing, thank you so much, that audiobook was impeccable, your voice were truly what gave me the shivers, the chills and questionary mindset, absolutely amazing audiobook....more