“In the bedroom I put on a sweatsuit I've had since high school, take the sheets off my bed, pick clothes up from the floor - dirty or clean it doesn't matter - put them all in the hamper, put clean sheets on the bed, pause to retch and weep, gather all the pillows and blankets from the rest of my apartment, get my computer, cocoon myself, watch TV. I order a pizza. I drift in and out of consciousness, letting their reality be my reality, eat the pizza, fall asleep with the TV on, wake up with the TV on, in and out, in and out, alone and lonely like I like it.”